It feels like forever since I’ve put my thoughts down like this, and it’s funny how time has a way of changing us. I used to write every day, letting my heart spill onto paper, but now… I hardly even pick up a pen. Life, distance, and all the things we need to do have somehow taken over, and I’ve forgotten the simplicity of just writing from the heart. I can’t help but miss those times when everything was just about us and the little moments we shared.

Long-distance relationships… they really test your strength, don’t they? Sometimes, it feels like we’re living in two different worlds, and I’m not sure if you feel the distance growing between us. But I feel it, and it weighs on me. It’s like I’m standing on the edge of something I can’t quite reach, and the more I try to bridge the gap, the further away it seems.

But here I am, writing to you. Because when I can’t find the right words in conversation, I turn to writing. Maybe it’s the only way I can truly express how much I miss you.

It’s odd, isn’t it? Saying “I love you” like it’s something I haven’t said before, like you’re not already mine. It’s strange to miss you as if I never held you close. But the truth is, I’m still falling for you falling deeper each day. You’re in my thoughts at every moment, uninvited, yet impossible to escape. You’ve become my default thought, my first and last, my morning sunrise and my night’s star.

How do I explain that when my phone buzzes, I hope it’s your name lighting up my screen? How do I say that when it isn’t, everything feels a little emptier? What’s the point of having a phone if it’s not you sharing your thoughts with me?

But there’s a beauty in the distance, too. It’s in the way you share your life with me, your stories, your little moments, and the way they become a part of me. I cherish that more than you know. Because loving someone isn’t just about being together in person it’s about connecting in the heart, even when you’re far away. And I want you to know, with every word, every text, every picture you send me, I’m falling even more in love with you.

I see you in everything. Your laugh echoes in my mind like a favorite song, your smile feels like a soft embrace, and every selfie you send me feels like a piece of home. I carry these moments with me, always.

I know things have been tough for you, and I wish I could be there to take some of that weight off your shoulders. If only I could give you a hug when the world feels too heavy. I wish the world could be kinder to you, and that you could feel my presence beside you, even from afar.

I miss you, Moy. And I’ll hold onto this longing because it’s a reminder of just how much I have to be grateful for you. Every day that we’re apart, I know I’m lucky to have you, and when we’re together again, I’ll never take that for granted.

Until im there next to you, know that you’re never far from my heart. never even left it.

With all my love,
5 december (the correct date hmm)